Deep within yourself are two powerful allies. They are your inner male and inner female. They are two aspects of your essential nature and are a potent source of love, healing and success in the world. Each one plays a crucial role in your overall well-being, so it is important to understand and nurture their unique and complimentary natures in order for them to work in harmony with each other. By becoming aware of and harmonizing your inner male and inner female, which are entirely different from your gender identity, you can overcome recurring or painful challenges and create a more fulfilling empowered, and profoundly peaceful life.
The Difference between Gender and Your Inner Male and Female
Your inner male and inner female are alive within you and influence the course of your life, regardless of your gender identification, your biological sex, or your sexual preference. Regardless of whether you identify yourself as a man, a woman, gender fluid, non-binary, transgender or any variation on the continuum, and regardless of whether you’re straight or LGBTQ, you still have both an inner male and inner female as the two fundamental parts of your nature, just like you have two hemispheres of the brain and a right hand and a left hand. They are part of the balance that exists in all natural things. In fact, the journey of recognizing and harmonizing your inner male and female is entirely separate from how you express your gender in society.
One of the many positive outcomes of healing your inner male and female is that you become inner-directed and free, instead of dependent on other people’s approval of your gender identity, and your life becomes productive, meaningful, and abundant with love.
Characteristics of the Healthy Inner Male
Your inner male gives you structure, discipline, protection, and boundaries, as well as the ability to follow through with action. You engage your inner male every time you are involved in external activities and pursue your desires and inspirations in the outer world through well-targeted, focused, sequential actions. Through the lens of your inner male, you analyze problems and acquire knowledge by applying logic and linear thoughts. Your inner male is a force of productivity and generous giving to others and to the world.
The Weak Inner Male
But what happens if your inner male is weak? Your inner male can become ineffective when its development has been stunted by experiences of trauma or abuse. Then, your inner male disconnects from the life-giving force of the feminine and loses potency. An ineffective inner male makes it difficult for you to set boundaries, protect yourself (particularly in intimate circumstances), or to speak out and voice your opinion. So even though you may have many ideas and ambitions, it becomes challenging for you to find the discipline and focus to reach your goals or to complete the projects you start.
The Overpowering and Controlling Inner Male
An alternate consequence of being abused early in life is that instead of your inner male becoming weak and ineffective, your inner male instead becomes modeled on your abuser. Then, your inner male closes off to the fluidity and connectedness of the feminine and perpetuates the pattern of being overpowering and controlling. As a result, you end up feeling driven, exhausted and propelled from the inside-out to work and be active all the time. When you rest, you might feel anxious and agitated because deep down, a part of you feels you are wasting your time. Maybe you experience loneliness and want more intimacy and fulfillment in your relationships but, if you are honest with yourself, you know that you don’t have space or time in your life to nurture a relationship. An overpowering inner male leaves you feeling empty, drained and alone—even if you are successful in reaching your professional goals—because you have neglected the needs of your soul and your emotional fulfillment. These are only a few examples of how the toxic shadow aspect of your inner male can interfere with your life.
Characteristics of the Healthy Inner Female
Your inner female brings fluidity, expansion, creative inspiration, interconnectedness, sensuality and awareness of your feelings and emotions. You engage your inner female every time you are still and go inward into the perception of your inner knowing, which gives you direction and clarity and the ability to rest and restore yourself. Through the lens of your inner female, you know intuitively the truth of any situation because you perceive reality from a wise, all-inclusive 360-degree perspective. Because of this ability to know beyond logic, (sometimes referred to as a “gut feeling”) your inner female can navigate comfortably in the realm of the unknown, in times of life transitions when you have to surrender to not knowing what comes next. Your inner female is a force of regeneration, openness and receptivity to others and to the abundance that the world offers you.
The Weak Inner Female
But what happens if your inner female is weak? Your inner female can become stunted when it’s disconnected from the protective aspect of the inner male, and, lacking the protection of the male, tries to protect you by shutting down and rigidifying. Then, you lose the ability to be open, fluid, and receptive. If you have been violated and have reacted by closing off your inner female, you might find it difficult to trust what is offered to you even if it is good and loving, so you become hypervigilant and uptight. Consequently, even though you desire to receive good things in your life, you might be uncomfortable receiving compliments, gifts and, most importantly, expressions of love. With a contracted inner female, you might work extra hard and do all the right things, but then the rewards elude you, and you wonder why all that work did not bear the fruit you had hoped for. The reason for this is because the feminine part of you is not open to receive. An additional consequence of a wounded, weak inner female is that you might experience difficulty connecting with your feelings and emotions, and you become overly mental and disconnected from your inner guidance.
The Overwhelming and Undermining Inner Female
Just like the inner male can become overpowering and controlling, the inner female can become overwhelming and undermining. This often happens when your inner female tries to protect you from experiences of intense powerlessness by disconnecting from external circumstances and undermining the structure and discipline of the inner male. This type of toxic inner female can ensnare you with an overwhelming amount of emotions that do not come to a resolution but suck you down into a never ending black hole, and you might end up feeling depressed and out of control. Because this kind of shadow inner female creates chaos, you may feel that your life is undermined by continuous drama that depletes you of life-force and vitality. In addition, this extreme inner female often enmeshes with others. When this happens, you might find yourself over-identifying with other people’s emotions and circumstances to the point that you begin to lose your sense of self and you can no longer distinguish your own thoughts and emotions from the thoughts and emotions of others.
The Next Step…
These are just some of the ways in which your inner male and inner female operate. Everyone has, in some form, a degree of these shadow aspects of the inner male and inner female, and I will be discussing how to harmonize and heal them, as well as how this relates to the current state of the world, in upcoming posts. The good news is, understanding these deep aspects of our own human nature is the first step to transforming their destructive impulses into their original, life-affirming, inspirational, powerful and loving natures.
Cover image: Detail from “The Alchemy of Love” by Tiziana DellaRovere